Here are some more daffodils. I normally think of them as blooming later, in March. This practice of making mandalas has me much more attuned to each plant’s true nature.

Daffodils, Siberian bugloss, tips of redwood branches, daisies, tiny viburnum flowers

Which gets me to thinking about my own true nature. Like many people my age, there are times when I feel like I’m in my thirties, and times when I fast forward to my eighties. I can see how much I’ve changed over the years. I no longer get married at the drop of a hat. I am less judgmental of myself and others. I’m MUCH more patient than before. I’ve always valued kindness, honesty, compassion, and fairness. As I’ve aged, those values are clearer, more explicit.

When I was dishonest as a younger person, I felt bad, but didn’t suddenly adopt honest behavior. That took growing up, being willing to admit to myself, and others, when I’d been dishonest. Learning to pause has been a great help there. If I pause, I can decide not to be lie when sometimes it’s the easiest way to go. I also no longer confuse being honest with being true to myself. I usually ask “is it true, is it kind, is it necessary?” before I open my mouth. I don’t remember where I first heard this quote, but when I looked online it was attributed to Socrates, the Buddha (falsely it says) and a fellow named Bernard Meltzer. Check him out. He was a radio talk show host for thirty years.

And now I honestly need to get outside and enjoy the garden. 🙂

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