I’m off-kilter and swirling this morning. The website will probably launch tomorrow, and there is still a lot to be done. I’m grateful that Beatrice Murch is the builder of the site. She makes it look easy, though I know it wouldn’t be easy for me. I’m also thankful for a friend from my days Kaiser Permanente job at kp.org, Rebecca Andre. She offered to test the site, and made some great suggestions. We’re working on incorporating them now. That’s the royal “we”. Beatrice is actually doing the work.

swirling mandala
African seed pods, eucalyptus buds, smoky topaz, clay beads, redwood branch tips, silk tassel tree buds, flat sedge

I’m also off-kilter because I’m taking a risk, exposing my work in a new way. This is okay, it’s to be expected when I do something new, and even though my brain is swirling, I know it will be just fine. I’m stretching, doing something totally new, and at my age – 70 – this is a very good thing. Building a website has exposed me to new information. Being vulnerable is a good stretch too. I’ve started reading Brene Brown’s book Daring Greatly. It’s about taking risks and being vulnerable. Here’s a quote that resonates with me ““When we spend our lives waiting until we’re perfect or bulletproof before we walk into the arena, we ultimately sacrifice relationships and opportunities that may not be recoverable, we squander our precious time, and we turn our backs on our gifts, those unique contributions that only we can make,” says Brown. “Perfect and bulletproof are seductive, but they don’t exist in the human experience.” As a young woman I though perfect and bulletproof were attainable, and came to much grief because of that. Not so today. I no longer waste my time with perfect, at least not for very long!

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